frustrated perfectionist caused by a thwarter world.

after all! reviews i made, sleepless nights i had, and all and all. still i got the test imperfectly.HOLY SHIT. yah yah. it's the mechanics' midterm test. depressing. i was expecting all things will go smoothly. nothing but burnout.. errr. all topics, all case, all problems that can be fond in our textbook, I answered it all, and there it went. things still ended down.  calculator error. LACKED LUCK I GUESS! I passed but I'm not satisfied.

anywaysss thats life, shit..people look like shit. speaking of shit, kanina while walking homeward, thinking how i would make my grades up sa finals... a shit, literally, was hit by my blind foot. tae. "patay, ambaho nito sa fx mamaya." The shit crawled clammily under my shoe. what i did, i jerked my foot, flinging the shit into the air. and I did not care. i did not bother to look where the shit fell anymores and just thought of my greater frustration, my grades..again.
"i gave my best but my best was not good enough."

there are experences talaga na paulit ulit. paulit ulit kasi they just give us the same lesson again and again. kagaya nga nun. alam ko naman na "expecting will just hurt"..pero i still expected.
and the world made me experience it again. bakit nga ba! why do we keep on encountering those experiences na alam naman na natin at same lang din yung ibibigay na lesson sa past lessons that we learned. siguro kasi. alam nga natin yung lesson, pero knowing alone is not enough. dapat siguro isinasabuhay natin. LALIM men.

wait another frustration pa. so saaaad talaga. the ERASERHEADS' REUNION concert is coming very soon. actually sa sabado na siya and i don't have ticket pa. ticket prices are P845 and P1345.. so kung manunuod ako, i have n choice but to go for 845. sa likod. wala pera eee. I'm really tensing with desire. desire to watch it. gradeschooler palang ako solid eheads nako eh. para sakin isa silang alamat. kaya kung mamimiss ko yung once in a lifetime concert na yun. wala na. patayin nalang nila ko.
pano nato...i only have P500 here. :'(
money talaga.

i'm missing so much. grades, eheads, gf, friend.
halo halo na sila sa utak ko. they are all first things to me. so first things first. aywan ku na.

prayer: sana po tumaas grades ko. sana po magkatime kami. sana po makanuod ako ng concert ng eheads. thank You.

(jan ako magaling, sa paghiling.)